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SWT..... after more than a year not writting anything in this blog.... I wonder why am i writting here again.... @.@

Aiyah.... life is like that.... full of question marks.... sometimes we can't really explain our own actions.... perhaps... the most rational reasoning is that i'm damn bored..... but i enjoyed writting it last time.... so why not now.....

Writting all these, are just for fun.... something to do, so that time passes by faster....

Wonder how i got all those ideas of what to write in this blog.... LOL

Re : Which am I..??

A poem to share with all.......

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I watched them tear a building down;
A gang of men in a busy town.
With a mighty heave and lusty yell,
They swung a beam and a side wall fell.

I said to the foreman, "Are these men skilled
As the men you'd hire if you had to build?
He gave a laugh and said, "No indeed!
Just a common labourer is all I need.
And I can wreck in a day or two
What it took the builder a year to do."

And I thought to myself as I went my way,
"Just which of these roles have I tried to play?
Am I a builder who works with care
Measuring life by the rule and square,
Or am I a wrecker as I walk the town
Content with the labour of tearing down?"

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Stop complaining.......

I have a lot of friends who study in colleges now... and many of them have complained that it is so stressful.... there's a lot of pressure..... some even are jealous that us form6 students have this 2 weeks June holidays.... some say that they have to start studying from January while us form6 starts only in May.... So I hereby have something to say to you all.........

STOP COMPLAINING...!!!!!!!!

Complaining about all the stress and pressure is useless... further more... it is the path that you all have chosen to study in colleges.... and stop saying that us form6 don't have any pressure... we will have pressures... it's just not now...... later it will be.....

Everybody have their own pressure, espesially from studies.... but we will just have to cope with it.... find a way to reduce the pressure... in which each people have their very own way of doing so.... whenever we are able to cope with the pressures from whatever source... we grow stronger.. more determined.. and even more mature.......

So, accept it..............

It is a fact of life..........

1 week.....

Okay.... 1 week have passed since.... since 27 of May..... well, in these seven little days... It was a very busy week for me...... and quite a nervous one too.......

First of all.... 28 May, 2.00am... I woke up..... why..? To watch the breath-taking match up between the 2 best football teams in the world... Manchester United VS Barcelona.... even before the match started... everybody in school was talking about it... who will win... who will score.... well... everybody can't wait for this day to come.... and so it finally came.... to wake up at 2.00am in the morning... it wasn't worth it.... come on.. Manchester United was beaten 0-2 by Barcelona.... MAN.... ManU sure played like crap that day..... or was it like 'prawns'...?? they were outran... and certainly outclassed by Barcelona.... or worst... being influenced by the playing style of Barcelona..... Iwas waiting for ManU to beat Barcelona but it happened rather the other way around..... sigh.......

After the not-so-breath-taking match, 28 and 29 May.... in school... I was definitely struggling with what the teachers was teaching about.... I think I'm bout to fail in my form6... nontheless... I will definitely try my best to cope.... as I have written before.... bombarded by question marks...... and can't wait for the school holidays to start..... time sure passes in a slow pace that 2 days....

Then came 30th of May.... Another day of football for me..... It was a saturday.. a usual day for me and my friends to play football together... well, things weren't going as planned... it rain for god's sake.... but we still managed to play for a while..... followed by our school's mini concert... please.... RM12 was not worth it.... but I sure am relieved that I did not stay back to 'enjoy' the whole of it... as I have another interesting match to catch... its Chelsea VS Everton in the FA Cup final...!! yes... Chelsea's the team I support... and they won..... of course it's expected....... They finally lifted a trophy since 2007..... FINALLY......

So skip the next 2 days.... and here comes 2nd of June... A holy big day for me.... It's my car test day... haha.... woke up in the morning around 7am... got myself ready and off I go to the place.... I reached the place around 9am... and guess what.... I only took my test on 1.30pm... DARN.... that's a whole lot of waiting.... but atleast I passed my test... got my 'P' licence now.... hehe..... It was so much easier than I had expected...... though I still have my parent's test to pass... and it will be a long time to pass it..... sigh..........

So here I am afterthat.... 3rd of June or is it 4th of June.... no matter that..... I can now enjoy my holiday... and believe you me....
that I will always be here to crap......
and I will never ever stop crapping........

thank you..........................

Tick... Tock... Tick... Tock..........

Tick tock tick tock......... everyone kept their eyes on their watches...... I was also one of them..... Can't help it.... School is beginning to feel boring... plus, today is the last day before we have our 2-week holiday... yay..!! The moment the bell rang indicating it was the end of school... everybody jumped up in joy...... alast... the torture is over... (well, for 2 weeks...)... better than nothing.... haha......

Some even had their holidays earlier then us..... one of my classmates even flew to Australia few days before..... he missed school for several days.... something my parents will never never ever allow..... sigh.....................

Form6 is a path chosen by many.... as compared to matriculation.... it is definitely an uphill compared to a road, 0 degree to the horizontal....... ie flat road...... it's hard to climb... and in the middle, some may give up climbing.... some may even fall down... Form6 is about quality..... which makes you a better educated person..... but not all are like that... same goes to the matriculation students.... there still exist the cream... to enter prestigeous university... one has to be the top of the creams.... creame de la creame.....(if I'm not mistaken).....

You spend more time in form6 (tick tock tick tock) and time tick-tocks away very quickly.... time is always a factor in finishing and mastering of form6 syllabus.... and often, time is not enough... it's a fact of life.. proven in statistics.....

Time, t=s ..... it's getting tougher and tougher day by day... second by second.....

Sigh....... time is running out........

Tick... tock.... tick.... tock........................... tick..................................................

Bombardment............... by '?????'

Ok, 2 weeks have passed since i entered form6...... yes.... it's only been 2 weeks..... but though it seems like it has been 2 months..... kind of crapping if you think.... going back to school life.... but what the heck, so be it... (life's a crap you know...)

But with just 2 weeks in, I'm starting to doubt my abilities of studying form6... whether will I be able to cope with the syllabus.... 2 weeks... and I have been bombarded by lots and lots of question marks in my brain on both physics and maths subject......... but I will definitely try my best to overcome it...... it's the same... I'm sure everybody feels the same.... ok maybe not everybody... but majority...... if not the minority......... (-_-lll)...... XD

(or maybe it's just me..??) see it's another question mark..!!!!

Syllabus of form6 is so much more complicated and difficult as compared to form5 and form4....... sometimes I feel like punching a person in the face if that person says that form4 and form5 maths and physics are tough......(yeah I'll punch him real hard)..... If there was a time machine.... I'll definitely go back in time and punch ownself first...... those who say that surely have not seen form6 syllabus.......

Can't wait for the holidays to come....... that's when I can get a break from those '????'..... But I may be quite busy then... so who knows...?? the future is uncertain... things won't always go as planned.....

Life is like that..... it craps... and it also sucks.... though that is what makes it interesting and beautiful......... confused..?? here's a question mark to you..... it's a gift.... from me to you... haha.............

Gone...?? one by one....

Ever believed in friends forever..?? this statement... might just be untrue..... Friendship can only be maintained if effort is put into it.... things are being done to bridge the friendship.... otherwise, after a period of time... friendship will bound to fall apart.........

Time flies, lets go to the past.............
ok, I studied in CLHS from form1 to form5... and I must say, I really enjoyed my time there with my friends..... we chat in school, joke around... we share our ups and downs together.... there were several who are very close to me..... it was a beautiful memory....... everything was fine until one day...... the 'day' SPM ended.... it was a day full of joy and tears..... it was the joy of finally ending SPM and the tears of having to separate with our friends.... Our friends which have chosen thier very own path for a better future..... It's hard to cope with it though...... I hate this kind of feeling..... and so, we separated... some went to college, some went to National Sevice, some went overseas and some simply loafing around.... Well, I went for my NS..... again, it was enjoyable and after 2 and a half months, and yet I have to go through the pain of having to separate with my friends again...... from the starting of that 'day'..... one by one... we got separated... one by one they leave us.... and one by one our friendship starts to collapse......

and so to the present.......
currently studying in form6... yeap met some of my old friends..... but i can say a simple majority of my friends have gone some where else.... seldom meet them too.... life goes on, I have my life here.... and they have their lives there.... everybody is just so busy about their own lives now.... although we have modern technologies to help us reignite our friendship, still it is just not enough... It only helps to slow down the process of our friendship from collapsing.........

'back' to the future......
So what happens after form6..? YES.... we get separated again.... my god.... AGAIN..... that means I have to go through all that pain again.... one by one will be gone again... minority may end up in the same university.... but after university.... in the working world, it's the beginning of everything again... new life style and certainly new friends......

New friends should be made and old friends should be kept..... (though sometimes it hard to do so.... but we should try our best to do so.....)

sigh............................................
the moment we meet, there will be a moment where we have to leave each other.......
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Where there is a beginning, there will be an ending.........